Gorey--Pastels

I will not be replying to most things for today, I'm in a very unstable place right now and I need to take a break from all this. I will only talk to my close friends but I won't talk much to those people as well. Sorry.

What is pointing at me and whispering about me gonna do??? What is giving me dirty looks in the hallways gonna do??? Are you trying to scare me back into being a girl??? Are you trying to threaten me??? Because honestly I don't give a shit, talk about me all you want, it's not gonna do shit. You can't scare me into being a girl, you can't threaten me with silence. It's like someone who's lost weight. You don't go up to them and say "Your still fat, and you'll always be fat." You say, "Good job, I'm proud of you, keep up the good work." Because someone who's about 130 pounds is not fat, and you can't "scare them back into being fat" there's nothing to scare them into. So just quit trying to make me something I'm not gonna be, because it won't work.

the attack helicopter jokes are not funny!! They can seem funny, but their really making fun of 'weird special snowflake genders' which is a completely and utterly shitty thing to call peoples identities. Those jokes or just rude and offensive but nobody talks about it and it shouldn't be joked about it because it could make people who aren't cis really offended and nervous and shit so just don't make those jokes please people

✨ all about me  ✨
names(s) ➤ Ehh just call me Cam
single or taken ➤  I've got a cinnamon roll bb
gender ➤  Male
hair color ➤ Naturally my hair is dark brown but it's like this pink color now pff
eye color ➤  Green-ish grey-ish 
height ➤ 5'7 
orientation ➤  idk if i'm straight or??? 

✨ specifics  ✨
what kind of shampoo do you use? ➤  i dunno what brand but i know it's something with coconut 
what are you listening to right now? ➤ Shawn Wasabi - uncool lunch tables mm 
who is the last person who called you? ➤  Drinksss :> 
how many buddies are online right now? ➤ No clue but probably like 10 or something???

✨ favorites  ✨
foods ➤  i live off cereal and honey right now tbh
subjects in school ➤ Language arts is the s hit

✨ have you ever  ✨
given anyone a bath? ➤ Not since i was like 7???
smoked? ➤ once but i did it cause my 'dad' made me???
bungee jumped? ➤  fuck that
skinny dipped? ➤ Skinny dipping in a bathtub
ever been in love? ➤ yesmm
made yourself cry to get out of trouble? ➤ Not for a while but yeah 
cried when someone died? ➤ Yep
lied? ➤ Always do
fallen for your best friend? ➤ Yesss
rejected someone? ➤ uhh yeah oopsie
used someone? ➤ I don't think???
done something you regret? ➤ Again, always

✨ current  ✨
clothes ➤  Black shorts and a pink tank top 
smell ➤ I'm sick and i can't smell anything so i have no clue
desktop picture ➤ none'ya business
song playing ➤ Uncool lunch tables :>

✨ last person  ✨
you touched ➤ My momma
hugged ➤  My bb
you emailed ➤ I dunno it's been so long since i've emailed people
you yelled at ➤ My brother because he's an annoying s-
you kissed ➤ My bb 

✨ are you  ✨
understanding? ➤  Yep
open-minded? ➤  Usually
arrogant? ➤ Probably
insecure ➤ Always
random ➤ a LWAYS-
hungry? ➤ Uhh sorta???
smart? ➤ Probably not
hard working? ➤ Depends
organized? ➤ Hell no
healthy? ➤ Never
shy? ➤ nope
difficult? ➤ You bet
bored? ➤ very
obsessed? ➤ With that gay shit yes
angry? ➤  not now my dude
sad? ➤ I'm always fucking sad
perverted? ➤ uhh maybe???
dirty minded? ➤ Depends if i wanna do that gay shit with my cinnamon roll ;;;>
trusting? ➤ what the fuck is trust???

✨ who do you wanna  ✨
kill? ➤ Too many people tbh
slap? ➤ Again too many people
get really wasted with? ➤ uhh???
talk to offline? ➤  My bb
kiss? ➤  m Y BB-
hug? ➤  everybody
cuddle? ➤  e verybo dyy
bang? ➤ you know who ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

✨ random  ✨
in the morning, I ➤ Stay in bed like the lazy piece of shit i am
I dream about ➤ My dreams are like an acid trip 

✨ which is better  ✨
Coke or Pepsi ➤ Diet pepsi mm
flowers or candy ➤  flowers for the  a e s t h e t i c 
tall or short ➤ smol hugs

✨ who  ✨
is your crush? ➤ bb
makes you laugh the most? ➤ everyone
makes you smile? ➤ bbbbb 
gives you a funny feeling when you talk to them? ➤ my smol cinnamon roll

✨ do you ever  ✨
find yourself thinking of the person you like for a long period of time? ➤ y es
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to message you? ➤ a lway ss 
wish you could alter your appearance - either just for aesthetics or because of gender-related dysphoria? ➤ b OTH P LEASE AHHH
wish you were younger? ➤ fuck no my childhood was shit

so i've talked about this with 2 friends on my mom
i've come to the conclusion that i want to identify as a male, therefore i am a transgender
man finding out what i really wanna be is a huge roller coaster but hopefully this is really what i want to stick with, or at least what i want to be for a long time